I heard, through a friend who is employed there, of an opening at a local large company. My son also happens to work there. I have always wanted to work there. Even if I have to take a cut in salary from where I was when I left The Company, as long as it is 75% of it, I'm fine with that. I can continue to collect unemployment longer than my original deadline. Mr. Obama extended benefits. I'm not certain how long (54 weeks or 99 weeks - government communications are always vague) but this just means I don't want to consider a part-time position, since I would probably make less than I get from unemployment benefits.
I don't need a job to "complete" me. My self-worth is okay. But, there's just so much housecleaning one woman can stand to do. After awhile, and finding myself talking to the dog, it's time for some different stimulation and interaction besides a wagging of the tail from man's best friend!
In other words, this extended vacation is becoming monotonous. Yes, I could get to like this. And, I have truly enjoyed the break from the rat race. But, I'm feeling the pull to get out there. When I heard of this opening, I felt excited and refreshed. If I don't get this job, I will most likely put just a little bit more into my job search. Perhaps I will re-tool my resume and cover letter. But, for now, I WANT THIS JOB!
I was unemployed for all of like 1.5 months (years ago) and went crazy on....um, day 3 I think. Haha. I was much less secure in my place in the world though and felt I needed a job to provide meaning. I am also a Type A, detail oriented, guy who thinks too much and gets fidgity if there's no plan. I totally get the talking to the dog part and only having so much to clean. I tried to read all the books I meant to read, "enjoy life" by laying in the sun during a previously taboo (when employed) afternoon - but I never got the pleasing sense of playing hooky that I thought I would. Did you do anything you wanted to do but never could when you were working?
ReplyDeleteI was able to sleep late some mornings ~ "until the sun hit my pillow". I was able to sit in the sun to my heart's content, but found that my tolerance for the sun's scorching rays "ain't what it used to be" :)I was able to reconnect with some of my children. I was able to bond with my four granddaughters, 2 of whom are toddlers. I rocked them for hours and watched them sleep, reminiscing over how wonderful being a grandmother really is. I was able to clean out closets and corners and storage areas. I donated many bags of clothes to Goodwill. I got the dog to the vet for his overdue shots. I was able to tolerate the cat's crazy steroid-driven behavior and avoid killing him (kidding . . . I think). I drove one kid here, another there, ran errands, then picked up the one kid, and picked up the other kid, then picked up their friend, etc., etc. More than anything, I allowed myself to BREATHE. I got some therapy to help me understand what was going through my head. I allowed myself to RELAX. And, I gave myself permission to HEAL.
ReplyDeleteI didn't plant a vegetable garden. (What the heck was I thinking?)
I did plant flowers in my corner garden but gave up on it when the deer ate my petunias every night for a week!
I didn't cut our food budget in half. In fact, we probably ate out more. Remember, I hate to cook. Being unemployed doesn't suddenly change that. Somehow, after a day of cleaning and taking care of the cat and dog and birds and an occasional baby or two, I felt that I deserved to eat out!
I didn't watch a lot of TV. Not sure why. I don't like to have the TV's on during the day. It depresses me. Something from my childhood.
I didn't go to the Y to work out like I thought I would. I didn't walk the dog more often.
I didn't read many books. In fact, I became bored with my favorite authors. I now believe my restlessness was invading my subconscious mind.