Sorting Out Feelings

A psychologist friend insists that I am acting happy about being let go because I need to avoid feelings of rejection. I wholeheartedly disagree. After years of working in an atmosphere of paranoia and intimidation and fear, having been "rejected" by The Company is not something worth being unhappy about. This is not a "Fox and the Grapes" situation. Given the "opportunity" to be employed by The Company again, even for a phenomenal amount of money, I would most certainly decline the offer. Therefore, I am happy (and, not just acting happy) to leave this experience behind me. As my husband says, "You can only go up from here!"

I am finishing up my third week of unemployment. I have been blessed to be able to enjoy beautiful spring weather. To be able to watch flowers bloom and the grass become more lush and green with every passing day is truly a privilege. Spending some quality time with my pets and children and grandchildren is priceless. I will not ruin this sabbatical by worrying about how long I will be unemployed.

For now, I am doing my part to keep things on an even keel. It is hard to avoid eating out, but we must make some changes. I should receive my 1st unemployment payment next week, which, incidentially, despite what the website states, is approximately 45% of my weekly salary.